it will get better

will it?

humansofnewyork:

“It’s been tough in law school. Cause you know, I grew up around here, and I’ve still got some of that ghettoness in me. I talk a little different. I came up with this sort of nonchalant attitude, and now I’m competing with a bunch of private school kids that are ruthless. I’m supposed to read sixty pages a night, and I’m realizing that I don’t read as well as I thought I did. I realized that public school kids are just behind. I did horrible the first year. I almost folded. But I pulled it back together. I took a tough internship that summer and came back strong. Cause it’s destined to happen.”

humansofnewyork:

“It’s been tough in law school. Cause you know, I grew up around here, and I’ve still got some of that ghettoness in me. I talk a little different. I came up with this sort of nonchalant attitude, and now I’m competing with a bunch of private school kids that are ruthless. I’m supposed to read sixty pages a night, and I’m realizing that I don’t read as well as I thought I did. I realized that public school kids are just behind. I did horrible the first year. I almost folded. But I pulled it back together. I took a tough internship that summer and came back strong. Cause it’s destined to happen.”

you are not stupid. you are not hopeless.

and the only thing that really matters / is the one thing I can’t seem to do

"talking backwards" by real estate is me

this project I am working on is so freaking hard

the problem it wants to solve is ill-specified and every possible component of it is harder than what our techniques appear to be currently capable of

and I also don’t know what I’m doing so I can’t quickly prototype new ideas, I feel trapped into using other people’s codes blindly bc I don’t have time to grok their papers

why is this my project grrr this is so stressful

c.b. cuts deep

c.b. cuts deep

loneliness is the stupidest emotion ever

it makes perfect sense biologically, but it

just

impedes

EVERYTHING

and just like that

I can make shoegaze

thank u reverb pedal

also apparently I could emulate most rock sounds all long, but my amp speakers just sucked and I couldn’t tell until I ran it out to my headphones? I tried “in the mouth a desert” and it sounded spot-on

downside: my ears hurt

ow

treble + distortion = pain

wow I always liked Crooked Rain OK but Slanted and Enchanted is really wonderful, it’s just so damn noisy and fun

"It’s that quality—Gallant’s “like-lifeness,” her unresolved presentness—that makes her stories sit so solidly, almost bad-naturedly, in memory. They have come to dinner, and, no matter how late the hour, you just can’t show them to the door."

http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2014/03/03/mavis-gallant

heh