but actually haven’t had that much fun in a while
should just drink more
can actually be myself without all the anxiety
i want so badly to meet you
i think i want to collapse
i want you to be the reason
i imagine us wet with exploded paint
once a week exhaling
and breaking off another piece of cookie
+ yoooo my senior thesis topic is SO. COOL. eeeeeeeeeeee
- but I was totally exhausted when meeting the professor so I seemed completely unenthusiastic. greattttttt
haha I’ll just have to make up for that…
also I never go to office hours because I am too embarrassed and don’t want to ask for help
but I realize that is probably a bad idea
I went with ryan today and 3/4 of the class was in there
literally this poor postdoc’s tiny office on the 11th floor of fine
and we fit 9 people in there
I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing on this 215 pset
…I guess I’ll learn it when I study for the final
from piazza: “Today in class, when Prof. Blei performed 5-fold cross-validation…”
am i the only one who thinks this sounds sexual
- Patrick: So, the quality of our analysis is not that great...but we can overwhelm them with the QUANTITY of our analysis!
"I used to have really bad social anxiety. I’d be so afraid of saying something awkward and uninteresting, I’d stand on the perimeter of conversations and not say a thing. Which ironically came across as awkward and uninteresting."
you have shredded so much, dear
now a sad husk—stained by salt water, drenched with exhaustion
and at last the worst may be gone
after all, who could hate the open sky, or the quiet dawn?
there is no one around,
you are too tired to think,
and that is your favorite time of day.
it is your favorite time of day.
an animated film
a small boy, or an old man
a savored meal with friends
a conscious undressing
you could have really been something
i was listening to built to spill “there’s nothing wrong with love” earlier today and i forgot how they have a joke “preview” of their “new album” as the last song, and the first part is just doug martsch screaming “KICK YOU IN THE HEAD AND THEN I’LL KICK YOU IN THE HEAD AND THEN I’LL KICK YOU IN THE HEAD” over distorted power chords